I am so tired. Tired of my baby not sleeping.
Last night, again, it's 4am and Hudson is groaning and fussing... then it gets louder and louder. Not even crying really. Then the back arching. Almost throwing a fit, all the while keeping his eyes closed. My eyes, on the other hand are wide open, because I am so awake. It is the second time of the night that he has been awake. This has gone on for about two weeks. He seems to sleep good for a week and then like shit for the next two. I don't get it. Naps are not like at home. No two hour morning nap. Maybe he misses his swing? Tummy ache? Growing pains?
I wish he could talk.
Normally if Hudson is fussy in the night, by this time Andy would take him out on the couch and sleep with him so that I can at least get a couple of hours of sleep. Can't wait for Saturday for him to get here. I might pump and let him stay up with him for the whole night I think. Never have I done it before, but I think it's a fine idea.
Last night I was doing a big shout out to the pity party. There I was bawling my fucking eyes out BEGGING my baby to let me get some sleep. Rocking him... shushing... feeding...
Finally, by 5 I was able to close my eyes again. I was up by 6:50-- time change is an hour behind here.
I have tried everything. Feeding him more in the day, consistent nap times, keeping down the activity in the evenings, bathing in the day/bathing at night... Ah, you name it and I have tried it. I have even thought about keeping him awake for a couple of hours when he wakes up in the night and then let him sleep most of the morning away, but I don't want to get him into that habit. That, and the fact that I am still at my sister's place. She suggested getting some lavender oil and putting it on something where he sleeps. It's worth a shot. Honestly, by 5 months he should be wanting to sleep longer!
Maybe there is lavender oil in her living room? Because Hudson just fell asleep in his Jumperoo!
I need a holiday! (Oh right-- I am on a holiday! Just not on a golf excursion with a bunch of buddies!)
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awwwwwwww, I remember those days... it seemed like FOREVER before the lil gabber would actually sleep, the back arching may be just frustration, he may just be restless because he is not at home. It will pass. I felt bad for ya, bawling your eyes out. It's tiring to be tired. Hang in there
ReplyDeleteI remember the days of bawling my eyes out, begging my kid to let me get some shut-eye. You aren't alone, Hon. We've all done it.
ReplyDeleteThe change of scenery may be the culprit. I'm really hoping that's what it is so once you get home, he'll feel comfortable again and want to sleep. You poor thing.