Momma's Boy

I would imagine you would be bored of my posts about no sleep. I realize I bitch constantly about it. I totally understand if you want to skip reading this one.

I have complained a hundred times before about how Hudson does not sleep well. It's both frustrating and exhausting. It consumes me.

I have been consistent with his schedule, and have been feeding him more in the daytime. Waking up 3 times a night still at 5 1/2 months old is ridiculous. I could pull my hair out. I am sure that he is only waking up out of habit. Last night I fed him an extra 4 oz from the freezer. He should be in a milk induced coma, but no. Like clockwork, he wakes up at 1:00, 4:00, then 6-7:00. He doesn't even open his eyes. He just cries. Alot.

All he wants is his Mom, and if I held him all night or he was beside me in my bed, he is content.

I have been trying the tough love approach. He sleeps in his crib even in the day rather than his swing. I have been leaving him to cry at night.
Last night again, he would not stop crying. I tried on two different occasions to leave him cry-- and after 15 minutes, I throw in the towel. He can only be left to cry for so long. I really don't want to feed him every time he wakes up, but lately finding myself doing it to stop him from throwing his fit any further. (Back arching and non-stop crying and yelling). He falls asleep every time after being fed.

While I left him to cry last night, Andy finally wakes up. (Dad has slept well for 5 months) He was MAD! Not at the fact that Hudson was crying, but at the fact that he was inconsolable. With Andy working so much last month and then being gone for a week, Hudson only wants his Mom. It frustrates him that there is nothing he can do to help. After a huge argument at 2am, he left me to feel like a complete and total failure. Even if that was not his intention, that's how it came across. Nobody should speak their mind in the middle of the night while sleep deprived.
Today he has apologized profusely. He knows better. He fucked up.

I simply kept quiet and told him that I can't do this alone. I just can't.

I have to ask though... What do you do? Let him cry longer? I am open to ideas... I don't mind him sleeping with me now so that I can get some sleep, but I don't want my 5 year old sleeping in my bed. Choices I make today will effect me tomorrow. Aaaaaaah!