Happy Friday!

I have been doing some thinking. Scary thought I know! The 3am cry for help inthe last post made me feel terrible, feeling sorry for myself... Pfft! Lack of sleep is a brutal thing... I ended up getting a solid 3 1/2 hours of sleep yesterday. Sucky, but I perceviered! Puttered the whole day and stayed up until 11 last night.



Anyway; here are some things that I have really thought long and hard about, and think I have resolved in the past day or so.



*The whole day care thing... it has to happen. I need to go back to work. I need 'my own' money, and even if I am not making giant amounts of cash right now on Mat leave I am atleast contributing and that takes some pressure off of Andy. Also, it will be good for Hudson and I to spend some time apart. Ultimately, I would like to work shorter days though. Maybe 3 days a week or a few hours a day 5 days a week? I am going to set up a meeting with my boss for next week. I am going to put myself on the wait list for the 'pro' day care (for lack of a better word) but put my starting date for February. That gives my friend a 2 month trial period to see if she really wants to do it, and I am sure that is when her Mat leave is up.



*I have spoken with Andy about getting up at night. I have done it solo for nearly 6 months now (crazy how time has flown) and if I need the help I will ask for it. Him getting up in the night and trying to help me only to end up bitching is not gonna fly. I told him that more help in the evenings or on the weekends would be best. He said that he vaguely even remembers getting up that night anyway. I gladly re-enacted it all for him.



No more of that.



*The whole house hunting thing. Yes, this house is great, but it is not rocket science that we are going to need a bigger one. We just need to look at lots of houses until the 'right one' comes along. It'll happen. But I will cry when we officially leave this one. I brought my son home for the first time to this house. *sniff*



*Went and caught a movie with a friend that I hadn't seen in months. The Hangover was a great movie. It was friggen' hilarious! Well that, and Bradley Cooper is nice on the eyes as well! (Black suit = Hotness!)

*Hudson's 2 lower teeth are 'right there'. Last night my Dad had him drinking out of his glass and with the pressure on his gums you could see them clear as day. I can see the light at the end of the tunnel!

So anyway, this feels like the fog has lifted... pulled my head out of my ass.

I have to also eat my own words and do 'one thing at a time.' I am not Superwoman nor do I need to be.

Have a great weekend!